Not a comfortable feeling.
Do to governmental regulations I go to work each day as an only moderately protected potential victim, to a place of employment where terrorism (or workplace violence if you listen to the president) And while I do not like it, it is the reality I have to accept for another year.
BUT when I'm not at work (Fort hood) or traveling to and from with no other stops I carry, everywhere it is legal.
Today was an exception and it did not feel good.
For several months now we have had a friend of my sons staying with us.. He is a good young man, and just needed a helping hand while he got in to the work force, figured a way into his life.
Neither of his divorced parents were in a position to provide him a roof or basic needs. So we traded work at the house for life support and paid for his drivers ed training he needed, help with getting a job ect..... ANYWAYS... all that to say.....a few days ago, his mother was shot to death by an Ex up in Waco..... today was the funeral.
My wife, son and I went as family friends and for support.. but my required manner of dress, slacks and a polo did not allow for concealed carry with one of my chosen carry guns and available holsters.
SO left in the car it was, while I was in a public meeting place with the family of a recently murdered woman.. Just not something Im comfortable with.
Ive never owned a suit other then Army Greens, Dress blues, Dress Mess whites, and now ASU's.. I realized had I had a nice suit, or even a sport coat... I could have carried as I do most any other day.
I failed to plan ahead for what is a likely common event for me as i transition to civilian life and likely invited to many funerals over the next few years as my peer group, and fellow soldiers , friends get older and pass on.
The point of this post...most of us do a great amount of planning and consideration for how we will carry today in our daily lives.. but don't forget that less common situation you may place your self in,, where your standard method of carry just does not fit.
For me, this was a Never Again!!.
I have an appointment on Monday to be fitted for a suit, concealed carry gun included.
PFC. Omar E. Torres, SPC. Christopher G. Patton, PFC Joe Luis Baines, SSG Todd A. Singleton
Sgt. Timothy A. David.
And the list of wounded from LTC Tim Karcher to PFC Javier Prieto
For whatever we missed that day, for what you will forever miss.. Please forgive.